my thing

I have a BIG ego! and it got me again during H-games. God is gracious that he showed me that I was wrong. This discipline was not comfortable, but i have to get through it.

So we were the game "pi in yo face" and 3 people had to go memorize digits of pie and teach it to 5 people who are learners. I was one of the 3. Because I used to memorize the 100 digits of pi, i thought i was sooo good that i was set, and if i just take another look, I could accurately teach it to the team. so the whisle blew, and we ran to the center to learn pi. all the digits looked so familiar, and i told one of the brothers that i got the next 8-10 digits. He kept asking me if i was sure and suggesting me to not do so much at a time, we could always come back. Because I was thinking at the time that this was already in my mind, and I got this. I assured him that i got all the digits. he kept asking because he was going to memorize the digits after mine. Whether his part was successful was greatly influence by mine. If i mess up, everything would be messed up, and we'd have to start over.

He was just being really careful, and in my stupid mind I was thinking: " why does he keep asking? I already said. " So I wanted to tell him that i used to memorize 100 digits. God was merciful to me. He blocked my mouth and didn't let those words come out. Becasue that would have been bad. Still that was the thought that came through my mind when he asked me--"i got this, not problem, I used to memorize the first 100 digits" except i stoped on the "I". The brother probably thought I was mad. so he didn't argue and just followed.

Guess what happened. I thought i got it all, but I blanked out on some digits, that i nad to run back and check. I was thinking to myself: why didn't i listen to him, and just do it bit by bit? This stupid proud face.

So brohter, I hope that you forgive me for my pride, and for what I've said to you. Please forgive me.

and God I am sorry.