when God tries to humble me

so you know how a plunger works... and imagine the red part being your face.

That's what God's been doing with me: "Jean, be humble, I can do things with or without you." Of course he's practicing his skill of plunging when he's telling me these things. So the result is my face falls flat on the ground, or the toilet if you will. Lifegroup leading, School, Piano, Resume, Job hunting... all these things... so many!

But some how God is pulling me through, and showing me that his grace is the only thing I can count on. What I have in front of God is simply filthy rags, and he's never tired of proving it to me. But he's also not tired of giving me grace and showing me how much he loves me!

I should jus have peace

Today was our baptism, but it was also Jessie's birthday dinner. CLASH.

After baptism and band breakdown-setup were over, I called them, no one picked up. I got stressed instantly, thinking that because I couldn't make it, they refused to pick up my calls. However, God above all these lies whispered: Jean, they just couldn't hear it. Don't be overly sensitive. This time I decided to trust God, and those stress started going away. 3 hours later (just now) my aunt calls me telling me that she didn't here the phone ringing on the table, and had missed the 2 calls that I had made. We even chatted about other things.

God is showing me that I cannot control the smallest things. and just trust in Him and everything will be fine. Even though this issue is so small, it's a constant decision to trust in God and, I thank God for helping me take steps to practice in trust. :)

I will be still know You are God.