don't understand

God I know that everything happens for a reason, but how come she had to go through all these suffering? she is the one who held the whole family together, and what are they going to do without her. God, you took her away because her mission is done on earth, but why leaving such a chaos? why leaving people in such grief? I know you have your good will in these, and I believe it. But why her, and why so hard, so sudden? Yaoyao always fought with her, and now Yaoyao didn't even get a chance to say sorry to her mom? Don't leave her in regret, please! You took her life away because of the wicked deeds of men. You are the unchanging God. Is this a reminder that you are the God who hates sin, who hates disobedience, who hates wickedness? God, please answer all the prayers, and help the family to stand up again. Let them depend on you! Please!

7.10.09 Gn44, Mk 15

Genesis 44:
After the banquet, Joseph told his steward to fill the bags of his brothers, but put back the money they used to pay, and put Joseph's cup into Benjamin's sack. When the brothers took off. Joseph had his steward chase them back accusing them of stealing his cup. The brothers denied it, and said if the cup was found in anyone's sack, then they would all become slaves to Joseph. They found the cup in Benjamin's sack. They then went back to Joseph. Joseph asked the brothers to leave for Canaan while Bejamin stayed there with him. Judah told Joseph that they could not go back, because if Bejamin, the only son left from Rebekah, didn't go back with them, Jacob would die fro grief. He asked to replace Bejamin with himself.

Mark 15:
The chief priests and teachers of the law handed Jesus over to Pilate, Pilate asked Jesus if he was the king of the jews, and Jesus answered yes. Pilate asked Jesus some other questions conscerning the "crime", Jesus didn't say a word. It was that time of the year when Pilate release a prisoner to the people. Being stirred by thte teachers of the law, the people all wanted Barabbas and wanted Jesus to be crucified. Pilate asked what crime had he committed that deserved to be crucified, but they only shouted louder.
The soldiers took Jesus away, and they mocked him. They put on a purple robe on him, and twisted together thorns as his crown. They spat on him. After they were done, they put his own cloths back on and took him out.
A man was travelling on the way, and the troop forced him to carry the cross for Jesus, They took him to the skull place. They crucified Jesus in the afternoon at 3. On the board that announced the charge said King of the Jews. People mocked him saying that though he saved a lot of people, he couldn't save himself.
At 6, darkness came till the ninth hour, and Jesus cried out:" my God my God, why have your forsaken me?" Then he died. The centurion saw this and said that he was really the son of God. There were women watching from a distance. On saturday, Joseph, a man who was waiting and seeking for God, asked Pilate if he could have the body of Christ, and after checking that Jesus was really dead, Pilate agreed.
Joseph then took Jesus' body, wrapped it and put him in a cave. The women saw where he was laid.

7.9.09 Gn43, Mk14

Genesis 43:
Jacob's family finished what they took back and the famine was still going on, so Jacob finally conformed to the olders ones taking Benjamin to Egypt. They arrived there safely, and Joseph had his servents take them to his house and pepare food for them to eat for lunch. The brothers went to the house and were scared because of the money in their sack. They explained to the steward, he said that they had received the money, and it's alright. Joseph came home and asked about their father and Benjamin. When he saw Benjamin, he went to his inner room to weep because hs missed him dearly. When he came back out, he told them that they should eat. He treated the brothers, and the Egyptians, but Benjamin's food was 5 times as much as everyone else's.

Mark 14:
Jesus and the twleve went to Simon, the Leper's house to eat, and a woman came with an alabaster jar of perfume, and broke the jar and poured the perfume on to Jesus. The disciples started accusing her saying that the perfume could be sold and money given to the poor. Jesus told them to leave her alone, because he said there would always be the poor, but he would not be withe them for long.
Then Jesus told two of his disciples to prepare the passover dinner. He told them to go to a certain person's house and prepare the dinner in the upper room. They did it, and there were no objections from the household. When they were together eating, Jesus predicted that there among the twelve would be one who would betray him. They all went one by one asking: "certainly not I."
Jesns then said that when he was arrested all the people would fled. However peter said to thim that he wouldn't betray Jesus no matter what. Jesus then told him that to night before the rooster crowed two times, Peter would betray him 3 times. Jesus then took Peter, James and John to the moutains to pray. Jesus went a distance from them, but when he came back, the three had fallen asleep. Jesus woke them up and told them to watch out. However they fell asleep a second time. Jesus didn't wake them up, and the third time. Jesus came back from praying and woke them up and told them that the time had come.
When they were going down the mountain, Judas came with a troop of people. He kissed Jesus as a sign of telling the troop who Jesus was, and then they arrested him. One of the disciples cut off the ear of a soldier, but Jesus told them not to rebel.
Jesus then was taken to court, where people were accusing him of different things, but since all the testimonies didn't match up, Jesus wasn't found guilty. However, they accused him of blesphamy, because he put equality between him and God. Peter were among the people in the courtyard. a girl recognized him by the fire. She called him out, saying that he was with Jesus. Peter denied it, then he went out by the gate and the servent girl came and told people again, he denied, then at the gate some soldiers recognized him and he denied. The rooster then crowed a second time. Peter remembered Jesus' words and went out and wept.

7.8.09 Gn42, Mk13

Genesis 42:
Jacob asked his 10 sons to go down to Egypt to buy food. He kept the youngest Benjamin with him because he was afraid that something might happened to him. Joseph at this time was already in charge of the the selling of the food. His brothers went to him and bowed to him. He recognized thim but they didn't recognize Joseph. When Joseph was reminded with his dreams he accused them as spies, and ordered them to prove their innocence by taking the youngest son to him. when he learned that Reuben missed him, he wept but turned back and spoke harshly to them. He threw Simon in Jail and had the others take food back and bring Benjamin. He also put back the money they used to buy food. When the brothers found out, they were scared. They went to their father and told him everything. Jacob was really angry and sad because he didn't want Benjamin to leave him. He was afraid something might happened on the way that he might never see Benjamin anymore. Reuben offered his two sons saying that if Benjamin dies, Jacob could take the lives of his two son.

Mark 13:
Jesus was leaving the temple, and his disciples came and pointed out all the great buildings to him. He then started predicting that no one of these stones will be lifted up. Some disciples asked him secrety that when would things happened. Jesus told them to be careful with the false prophet and the false-christs. There would be betrayals among families. flee when persecution comes. Everything would change, but God would not change. Whoever stand firm to the end would be saved. the Christ will come like the master of the house, but the servents don't know when he will come back so they should be always on duty to prepare for the regturn of the master.

7.7.09 Gn41, Mk12

Genesis 41:
Pharoah had dreams this time. He dreamed about 7 fat cows coming out of the Nile river, However, they were eaten by the 7 lean cows coming up after the fat. He also dreamed about 7 healthy grain heads, but they were also eaten by the 7 weak grain heads. He was troubled, but no one in Egypt could explain to him what the meaning of the dreams was. Pharoah's cupbearer now remebered Joseph, and recommended Pharoah seeing Joseph. When pharoah asked Joseph if he could interpret dreams for people, Joseph said that he could not, but God could. After hearing Pharoah's dreams, Joseph told him that the 7 fat cows and healthy grain head represent 7 good years, and the 7 lean cows and 7 weak grain heads represent 7 years famine. He suggested have someone take charge of the food, and store them up. Pharoah couldn't find anyone better Joseph, so he appointed Joseph to take care of the who Egypt for him. Joseph used many methosed to store up food. The first 7 years are good, and the famine came afterwards just as Joseph had prophesized. All land ran out of food except Egypt, and every country come to Egypt to buy food.

Mark 12:
Jesus is still in Jerusalem, and he started telling people the parable about the tenats: a vineyard owner rented out his field to some people, and when harvest time came, he sent his servents to get what he desired. However, the tenants wounded the first one, and kill the second. The owner ten sent some more servants, they were all either beat up, or killed. At last, he sent his son, thinking that they would respect him, however, the tenants think that if the son is killed then, they could have the land forever. After the son waskilled, the vineyard owner was angry that he took back all his rent out and gave it to someone else.
People then challeged him saying whether it's okay to pay tax, and Jesus examined a piece of coin and told people give back what is Caeasar's.
The next challenge is this: people asked Jesus what if a widow married all the brothers is the family, and yet didn't have children for any of them, and to whom would she be called wife of? Jesus told them that in heaven there would be no marriage.
People asked about the greatest command, Jesus said that Love God, and Love neighbors as the first two command.
Jesus then asked who's son Christ was and why did he come from David yet David still calls him Lord.
Jesus value most no with how much one gives, but what proportion of 0ne's life is dedicated to serve him.

7.6.09 Gn40, Mk11

Genesis 40:
During the time when Joseph was in jail, two of the king's sevant got thrown into the same place as Joseph. One is the king's cupbearer, the other the baker. One night they both had a dream but Joseph found out they were both sad, because no one was able to interpret the dream for them. Joseph had them tell him their dreams, and he interpreted them. The cupbearer dreamed about three branches and he was squeezing the grape juice into King Pharoah's cup. Joseph told him that three days later he would be back to his position. Joseph told the cupbearer to remember him when he got his job back. The baker also told him the dream: he had 3 laoves of bread on top of his head and the birds were eathing them. Joseph told him that in three days, he would be hanged and the birds will eat his flesh. In three days, on Pharoah's birthday, things happened exactly as Joseph predicted. the cupbearer lived and the baker died. However, the cupbearer forgot Joseph.

Mark 11:
Jesus and his disciples approached Jarusalem and out side of the city, Jesus told his disciples to get him a donkey and if anyone asked just tell them the master needed it. The disciples did so, and the owner of the donkey didn't stop the disciples after learning that Jesus needed it. After people put cloak on the donkey, he rode it and went into the city. More people gathered, and they put their cloaks on the ground and some put cut-off branches and Jesus entered stepping on them, with people cheering "Hosanna." Jesus then went to Bethany.
The next day at Bethany, Jesus was hungry, and he saw a fig tree and went to find out what he could get from the tree. However, the tree wasn't bearing any fruit, so Jesus cursed it to not bear anyfruit. He then went into the temple, and saw peole doing business in the temple, and he was angry, and chased out the peole and over turned the tables. Because he was remembering what God said that the temple was the house of prayer for all nations. Everyone who were there were all amazed. Then went out of the city again.
When Jesus and his disciples passed the fig tree again, the leaves were withered. Peter told Jesus to look at the scene. Jesus said to the disciples that if they have faith in God, then they could easilty throw mountains into seas. Therefore, he told them to have faith, and to blieve.
When they went back to Jerusalem again, Jesus was int eh temple courts, and the chief priests and the elders and the teachers of the laws questioned him where he got the authority to do things. He then asked back a question: was John's baptism from heaven of earth? The hypocrits couldn't answer, so Jesus didn't answer their questions either.

7.1.09 Gn39, Mk10

Genesis 39:
When Potiphar bought Joseph, the Lord was with him and Potiphar saw this and trusted Joseph with everything. In turn, the Lord blessed Portiphar's household. Portiphar left for a while and had Joseph take charge of everything. However, Potiphar's wife wanted to bed with Joseph. Joseph resisted every single time she asked, saying that he cannot betray his master and cannot sin against God. One day, she caught Joseph's cloack and Joseph ran away. However, she started telling everyone that Joseph tried to take advantage of her. Shen also told Portiphar when he came back. Portiphar was so angry that he threw Joseph into the jail. However, the Lord was still with Joseph, and was pleased with what he did, and blessed him. The Warden paid no attention to Joseph and even had him take charge of all te prisoners in the jail.

Mark 10
The Pharasees again tested Jesus asking if a man should divorce. Jesus said that in the law Moses gave, a man could divorce, but that's just because people's hearts were hard. He said that in God's commandment, men and women should leave their mothers and fathers and marry each other and become one flesh. Therefore, what was made one by God should not be separated by men.
Some people brought little children to Jesus to have him bless them. The disciples rebuked them. Seeing this, Jesus was angry and he rebuked his disciples, saying that whoever didn't receive the kindom of God like a child could never enter it.
There was a rich young man who came to Jesus and asked about how he could recive eternal life. Jesus told him about the commandments and he said he obeyed all of them. Then Jesus told him to sell everything he had and give to the poor and follow him. This he faild to do. Jesus sighed and told his disciples how hard it was for a rich man to inherit the treseare in heaven. It is harder than to have a camel go through the eye of a needle.The disciples then told Jesus that they follow Jesus alone. Jesus told them that they needed to leave their relatives as well for they would gain more, and along the way, they would receive persecution. However the eternal life would be ready for them in heaven.
Jesus again predicted his death and how people were going to treat him before his death. He also predicted that he was going to rise after three days.
James and John went to Jesus and asked if he could put one of them on his right and the other on on his left. Jesus said that he couldn't judge. And the positions were for the ones who were ready for the position. When the ten other disciples heard this, they were angry. Jesus told them that whoever wanted to come first much come last, and vice versa.
When they were in Jericho, a large crowd were with Jesus, and a blind man shouted to Jesus wanting the son of David. When people told him to stop, he shouted even louder. Jesus called to him and asked what he wanted. The man wanted to see, so Jesus told him that he faith had healed him and gave him vision.