My specific prayer

So about my last blog post...
This is really funny, cuz I connected my blog with buzz not knowing that the last blog entry will be put on. the entry was written days before I connected the two. But this is even better, cuz I made the prayer asking God whether he wants me to keep going with piano by asking for a scholarship.

But before going into the results, here is why I am asking this question.

First of all, I found piano really hard this semester, and I think it is definately my slump. So for a while I didn't have motivation to practice. I also wanted to quit, but after discovering that it was completely out of my own failure, and laziness, and lack of discipline, I told God that I am not going to give up just because it becomes hard. I am really thankful that I found many motivations and inspirations from God.

However, things really started getting wobbly, I don't know if piano is what God wants me to pursue any more. Because that will be an extra year of tuition, and I don't know what he wants me to do with it. So I said: " God, if keep going with piano is your plan for me, then grant that scholarship, and if I don't get it, then that means you don't want me to keep going with it. And I will quit."

So it's been a month of waiting, and today I finally got the answer. I got the mail from the music school after coming home from LG. I opened it, and it ways "I am pleased to inform you...."

Yeah, so Praise the Lord I got a scholarship, and he has answered my prayer specificly.

PTL for the scholarship, but more, PTL for the direction he gave me. Now he has given me this chance to obey him, and I will. I know the rest is up to me, but I will do it! With his strength, I can do it!

God is good and faithful! I have a great God!

What are you busy doing?

Jean, what are you busy doing?
why is it that you always run out of time--for anything!
God created this universe for you to enjoy, and you re just so consumed in your own tasks and deadlines.
stop and think, Jean.
what made you so busy?
you have one more month left! it's up to you to decide whether you wanna keep going or not, and if you make that decision, you'd better stick to it! do not give up when things become hard, and stop and think, what is it that God want you to learn in this area.

His plan is perfect for you, and you just made a very specific prayer that if you receive scholarship from the music school, God wants you to keep going in the field, if not, drop it. So now, just be patient and wait.
He will answer soon!

Jean, don't rush to places. Stop and listen to His voice. Where does he want you to go? You cannot multitask, so you need to stop all you are doing, and listen!