Going Psyco!!

This is a habit of mine from childhood, or I can say I am conditioned to think this way. I need a break through, or else, I will go psyco!

My insecurities are hitting me really badly, and I have realized this recently. This insecurity (from what I discovered) is a little different from what people usually feel, though in some aspects they are similar. I don't know how to descirbe it. It's like I worry too much. yeah that's it, I worry too much, way too much!

A lot of times, if I don't remember somthing, then I will assume the worst, and this has become a problem, because the things I assume are completely random, the chances of them happening is literally 1/100000.

Now that I think about it, it is due to my hyper-sensitiveness, and I was scared as a child that bad things are gonna happen around me, so I prepare for the worst, like usually a death. I have imagined so many deaths in my family, so many ways of dying! I don't even know! I just need someone to tell me that this is normal, and if this is not, tell me how to fix it!

I feel like all these year i have been refusing to receive God's peace, and it's really hard without it! I am just way tooo stubborn!

please God break me, so I can receive your peace!!