He is really good to me

Tonight God really answered my preayers of opening my eyes and ears to see and listen to His signs. After (even when I am) talking to my discipler, I realized a lot of things that I didn't reallize. I thought I was so good, but in fact, i was so messed up on the inside, and it was not God's fault that i wasn't seeing or hearing his signs, it was because I built a glass wall between him and me. I know he's there, and I know he can see me, but i bubbled up myself so that he could not reach into me. The glass walls were built with pride, self-righteousness, self-justification, and many other things. God tried to reach to me gently, but I wasn't aware, so he broke them into pieces. Not till i cry out to him, did i realize that all this time, He was there waiting for the moment of break through. I am really blessed to have Downpour, Warriors, and many other friends and leaders in my life to guide me in the right direction. God was really good to me, and after the prayer gathering (even though I was not in the best attitude) and the talk, i was able to open my mouth and praise Him again. So praise the Lord for dragging me back and for loving me so much, and for fetching me, this lost sheep back to the crowd. Thanks Lord!