He is soooooo good.
So in the music field, I always feel that everyone else is better than I am. However, God just told me during the orchestra concert that all that doesn't matter. He just rebuked Satan for me during the concert. I felt so light-hearted during the concert and it felt really good. A lot of the images from the bible just one by one popped in my head: Exodus, Acts, Matthew.... He didn't show me how good I have become, cuz I'm not all that good, but He really showed me how much he was pleased by me and how little my playing mattered. What mattered was my attitude. During the concert, I felt like he was just taken all my burdens away, and I felt sooooooo joyful and energetic afterwards. I just understand more why he put me into this field when it's so competitive, and when I didn't play for 3 crucial years. He must have some purpose for me to fulfill, I don't know what it is yet, but I am willing to sacrifice what I was holding onto for His glory. When I saw that vision during the concert, it felt great. It's like He had revealed himself to me. I felt like all my burdens are taken away. Maybe he wanted me to go into music just because I could see Him through it, or I could really learn to see Him through it. I have seen him in music a lot, and He is making me see more i believe. God is really good to me. It seems like all my distress didn't last that long, and He didn't want me to suffer that much and He is such a good teacher, teaching me all these lessons. I want give more of myself to get to know him more. I want to become like a bathtub, instead of a tea cup to hold his ocean-full of blessings and love. Eventually, I want to become the ocean.
God you are so good.
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