So to wrap up my freshman year. I could see I really grew closer to God, and this is such a good feeling. First of all, coming in as someone who didn't get the desired major, and the major pursuing was ompletely stange. I saw His plans and blessings. I never felt so happy in the music school, and never thought I could like music so much. Finishing strongly in that field further proved God's grace and plan for me in the music school. Along the way, I was able to pick up my other major, have a better understanding about God. I was leaning too much onto myself, that God preyed math from me, and when I understood it, He, the graceful father, said: " fine, you can have it, and I'll be there with you." Truly, every single day was a miracle, and He was always by my side, whether I am aware or not. At times when I was down, He finds all kinds of possiblities to cheer me up, and reminds me: "It's okay, you can lean on my shoulder, and I'm that chair you can put your whole weight on."
He always had me finish learning a lesson and moved on to the next. First semester my lesson was just simply trust Him, and he will make the music school thing work. He proved Himself easily by just showing me how much I can love and play music. Second semester, I learned to lift up my burdens to Him and have Him take care of it. He gradually helped my drop my stress on studying and playing the piano. At the final I wasn't even stressed at all.
Of course He didn't just come to me and tell me all those. He uses people to show me his plans, and without Lifegroup, I would not be able to get a glimpse of how much He loves me. Through all the people in my lifegroup, I see his light, and I see the righteousness He was talking about. I have a community so close that I am comfortable sharing about anything, and I didn't get this community by chance. He provided for me, and He knew I wouldn't be nearly as happy if i was placed somewhere else. He provided the best. They are such great people--Tina, Angela, Eric, Debbie, Daniel, and many more. Through them, He says: " look, Jean, I can do great things in them, and so can I do great things in you." He did it... a lot. Even through Alina, He showed me how much He loves, and how much he cares about our prayers. He is almighty, so He answered. I was reminded once again, how much He loves sinners, and how much He heals. He reminded me that believing in the simple gosple is our ticket to live with him in eternity.
Tina told me I am a feeler, and indeed I am. I want to feel more of Him in the future. I want to be able to surrender more of myself to Him. The verse that wraps up the whole freshman year is: Seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Matthew 6:33
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