Cancer Patient

This past Wednesday's lifegroup reminded me agian the magnitude of my salvation--the Gospel.

So we were learning about Uzzah, and he touched the Ark of the Lord and died. That was his emergency reaction. However, his unconscious action still disobeyed God, and God said not to touch the Ark of the Lord whatsoever. So Uzzah was killed.

How many times do I deserve to die? I lie; I hate; I get jealous; I am selfish (1E100000000+ sins not listed). However, I am still alive and well. Why? It's ALL because of Jesus. Every single one of my sins deserves a death sentence, but Jesus took it away. He took it all! I am so good at following the "Gospel outline" these days that I preach that to myself without putting relating it into my life. This bible study just reminded me that every single day of my life the days themselves are a display of God's grace, not to mention the blessings He poured onto me. And I live like I deserve all these--complaining, hating, creating my own agendas (1E100000000+ things not listed).

Imagine a cancer patient, knowing that he could only live for 2 days, how would he feel when he finds out that he is still alive on the 3rd day? Wouldn't he live with such gratitude? Wouldn't he try his best to make something out of this extension of his life?

I didn't even deserve to be born, but God brought me to this earth and showed me His glory. Every single day of my life is an extension and a display of His grace. But look at how I'm living! It shows how I don't understand the magnitude of His love. But he showed me this: my sin is bottomless, yet His love is bigger than that.

God, give me a thankful heart like a cancer patient who finds out on the 3rd day that he is still alive! I deserve many death sentences but you decided to let me live, and it's all because of Jesus! My salvation story is not something small. It's a display of Your grace and Your mercy. Help me to not just live like it's my last day, but like it's an extra day of my life given by you. And help me to give the day fully to you!