Countdown

I have about 1.5 years left on my visa term. what does that mean? That means if I don't find a job during senior year or a little after, I am getting on an air plane and going back to China.

I was talking to someone about the freedom of choice. We came to the conclusion that people only complain about the lack of freedom when they are jealous of other people's freedom of choice. I realize that's also the case for me.

I used to be worried that there's a possibility that I might HAVE TO go back to China--that I couldn't choose to stay. However, now I that I think about it, I'm happy that I don't get a choice myself. If God opens door for me to stay here then I will obey and stay. But I if don't get to stay, then that means God doesn't want me here. So if I force it, I won't be obeying God. That would be the ultimate suck--way more than not being able to stay here.

I would be sad to have to leave the place that I will have lived in for 7 years, and where I learned so much of God. But I am excited for the countdown! God is going to show me something exciting really soon!! College is like the "ready, set" and after college is the "go," wherever He wants me to go. I'm excited! :)