God Wants Me to Respond to Him

Love the Lord, and Love His people.
Love is patient, love is kind...
Love is so hard, but God calls me to love like Jesus.
Jesus loved the people who nailed Him to the cross, and God demands me to love just like that.
He will not give me anything I cannot bear, and right now, he only called me to love on a smaller scale, but even that is so hard.

it's your kindness Lord, that leads us to repentance...(not condemnation)
So God tells me to show kindness to dad so that he could come to Him and repent.
He set me up to be able to do that, but witnessing someone do that is just too powerful.
Kindness brought repentance, and this little bit of obedience on my side brought reconciliation.

However, God is saying: "Jean, there is more, and know that I am God, not you. I have everything is control, and even if things don't go your way, are you going to obey and glorify me? Are you gonna have joy if this is the best thing that could happen to you and your family? I am God, I know what's best for my people."

Yes.
This is the biggest act of obedience I've ever done so far. But I know God demands more.
He is just saving them it for later.
God has been showing me his kindness all along, and now it's time for me to respond. He loves me too much to leave me as the old wineskin. He wants to renew me.
Even though things didn't all go the way I had prayed, but I know that God is greater.
My eyes have seen Holy.

Jean, have more faith, and more is to come. God's got it all.