Always blessed

reviewing my past, I am always the blessed one. God sent me people, protection, guidence, promises... so many things. He always answer my prayers fast. Again, after I found out that i don't have enough knowledge about God's love (head knowledge doesn't really count) because of my insecurities, he showed me more of how much he loves me. He picks me up everytime I fail, everytime i fall, everytime I'm struck. This past week, his LOVE rebukes really got me! he didn't tell me: "Jean, can't you tell i love you? after all I've done for you how come you still don't know? you evil one!" He didn't tell me that. instead, he said: "jean, let me show more of my love to you...oh, you still don't see? let me give more... and more... and more...." so again and again, I'm drentched in his love, his downpouring love. and I'm standing there speechless, motionless, his blessings come like raining cats and dogs. Such a good feeling!!! soooo blessed! I still cannot put everything in words! I can only say, He is so good!